Crisis management

I haven't blogged for years, preferring to just respond to others ideas. Being original, alone is scary. Anyway middle of crisis in every sense. We all have to grow beyond ourselves. Grow a new skin shed our cocoon, leave the nest. Politically and economically and socially it is clear. They will take cate of that, making ordets, laws, programs. We are just pawns. Of course not completely. Inside we have to change to manage the stress. Everybody gets a hobby, book, sport. But it shows our level of inner preparedmess if we can use the crisis to grow emotionally to heights we would never have thought possible. Maye we lesrn to ovrcome inner fears, get closer to family, friends or help others maybe by just being more independent, finding our own voice like I am tryimg to do.

My main issues have been work, family, spiritual growth and dealing with social media communications. Now work and family are just as one could expect from middle aged married guy with two kids. They grow, finish up and eventually they will be gone, empty nest. Wife works more. My job is as always, new people, old people, challenges. Internet media is the hobby area. Communicate, read news, see new faces. How to get away from isolation of the old media like television and radio into interaction of commenting interacting in the global village. Very enriching. Of course I am strong headed, egotistical, have much to say so it doesn't always fit. So one drifts from space to space to find a voice, feel useful, wanted, helping. Making one's own space is also a solution. Maybe nobody will isten, like a diary. Ok. Who cares. I like writing. Given time it could turn into a self therapy, maybe short stories, poems, essays on life and the universe, political humdrum. Control is important. At least I can listen to and develop own ideas on stuff independently like samizdat or independent films, uncensored by others.

I have been reading spiritual books last half year or so, pretty heavy going. It isn't so much the content as the feel of it, like how food tastes. Style over substance, no , but if one has true style then true depth exists like in any artwork, acting and everyone will sense this, even if they don't undersand the language. I am surprised at what these books  do as opposed to other art. Music, pop, classical, classical paintings, good literature is great, gets you lauging, crying, in a deep thoughtful mood. But some works, if you are 'on their wavelength' really raise your game to a whole new level. This wavelength requires years of spiritual work, meaning that standard 8 fold path of yoga or buddhism or perhaps christian mystiicism or sufism or wicca type appro. Sunday service attendance is not what I mean. Hard to find the right approach or 'guru' to lighten you path and  a rocky road afterwards. But once you get moving, get the feel of it, wonderful. Then you can get on the wavelngths of spiritual texts without needing a physical guru/teacher and this can guide you through its energy flowing into you. We get inspired, all of us, in a rare moment of insight, how much more a spiritual master. They bootstrap us beyond what we could ever imagine, bringing us into celestial abode inside of us, opening our hearts, our eyes. Then we just naturallytake a step forward, come out of our shells into the light of day and develop or find new friends, new techniques by intuition, chance, serendipitously. This has happened to me. Crisis as chance. Out of the old and into the new. Lose a friend and a new one appears, with effort, time, determination. Same with other things. If the consumption economy crashes maybe we can learn to make do with less and enjoy like we did for thousands of years. Spiritality could sure help us.  Now stagnation, linear thinking is a basic problem in all fields of life, politics, science, spirituality. In the group or individually. A little crisis gives us a jolt and helps find creative solutions. Last economic crisis joted me from desk job to physically active janitorial. The benefits were enormous in terms of mental, physical health. Spirituality also got moving. I guess stsgnation works at all levels. So getting a move on literally opened up my heart. All that yog and salad don't help much if I was just sitting around in a corner desk staring at a screen it seems. I figure that activity increases adrenalin, testosterone(muscle mass) so that stagnant prana gets flowing in me and to others. Of course after some years I have learned to control it, observe it, manipulate it like a professional. Chakra here, chakra there, chakra everywhere. Some run horizontal, others vertical. And hips, shoulders drain from core to arms and legs where feet and hands can release all that energy into the wild so the heart can grow more. Of course stretching, yoga helps to get this flow to limbs and between chakras going. Head to heart or heart to genitals or when the those are filled up the  crown connects to the feet in a rush of energy. Cool. Little insights. Dancing slow brought me such energy last week, just like tai chi does, been on that for 17 years, helps flow to limbs from core, relieves blockages in core. Now since it seems to have all gotten more sensitive lately dance was interesting, then just sitting, still moving arms, then just hands the energy massaged all chakras and later at home just doing chin mudra, thumb to forefinger, was like a circuit around the chakra, microcosnmic orbit in tao speak. I also took up symbld like om on my wall and now a sri yantra screen saver. Latter really focuses, strengthens third eye. Of course mantras after many years of practice stimulate energy body. Earlier very quieting like prayer. Latest trick I tried muscle locks, 'bandhas' while underway. I got drained emotionally as contacts are so deep, moving sometimes. Flexing, contracting bandhas,, 3rd eye(instead of throat block) stimulates all chakras, probably fittens up muscles in belly, butt, face. Now I can recharge without too much worry and spread love around without exhaustoion, turbulence.